mommy

At least my Mom felt happy for that..

I almost spend my night out again. At first I was driving home, but instead of getting home quickly, I just drove myself around for minutes. May be 20 mins. I thought I could spend my night happily at home. I might chit chatting with friends thru YM, I dunno. But then, I thought again, my brother would be using my computer by then. So, I thought again what I was going to do. I barely stopped thinking of calling my friends to go out. I was still cruising around. But I thought again, there's shortage of money. Problem. Yea, so I just decided to go home. And I searched for good reasons for me to go home that quick. I found one. At least my Mom would feel happy for me being home that fast. This reason meant a world to me. For once I might did the right thing. Make her smile. : )

depressed

so why everything got out of boundaries?
Is that why things are meant to be broken?
Rules are made to be broken?
Do these explain the way things got out of line?

Why can't at least once I do right thing?
Why can't at least once I end up feeling splendid?
Why can't at least once I make no mistake?
Why can't at least once I blame you?

But it always ended up having all fingers pointed at me. And I sould carry all this flaws with me til death comes to greet me. No holes, No flaws, No mistakes, are No human. No death No human.
And hearts are to be broken..

And what's going on with me?

out of a sudden

tadi masi oke2 aja, tapi kenapa sekarang jadi gini?

what happened to my PC?

Hoahhhhh!!

I just thought I might use this blog again after a long time being neglected.

I want to start posting some stuff and change the lay out. But it turns out that I can't because my PC at home is currently being fixed. I don't have any idea where the trouble came from and I don't know when I can use it again.
My PC used a cable modem[the hell, I don't know] to connect to the internet. Since the PC is broken down, I just thought I might use the cable modem to my father's laptop. Then, I just thought that it only use one telephone-look-alike-cable to connect to the PC so it might also work on my father's laptop. But, it didn't work out. I tried ao many ways. but it turned out that it didn't work at all. So, I'll just have to wait..

By the way, I'm starting my lesson at goethe institut. Just FYI...doesn't even matter.

all I want to do is just have some fun!

but there's still one more week to work on that stupid thing..Aaarrrgghhh.. I want to resign.. please, if onl i could..but. I've been to this point. just one last left to be done. just one.. but.. Aarrrghhh

but at least i don't have any more exams.. but I hate this semester! I hate it! and I should wait til those lecturers get their ass back here from Hongkong then I'm going to get my final score for that 8 credits study in the studio.. Aaarrrgghh...

but it's life anyway, what is it maight have been called if it's not as hard and rough as this? it surely wouldn't be life.

differences and confusion

what it's all about?

differences and confusion

About me: music, fashion, literature, art, drawing, food, a bit of technology, a trial session of photography.

Confusing facts about whether I use my heart instead of my brain.
Nobody can tell me any reason for what have happened.

[ ] Think so I can feel
[ ] Feel so I can think

[ ] Have it cross my mind
[ ] Have it inside my heart

[ ] Differences are things I should put up with
[ ] Differences are things I should avoid

[ ] Differences will provoke a fight
[ ] Differences will teach me a tolerate way of thinking



*) put a tick on each right answer.

Moments of both of us

Things have been working pretty well.
Moments of caring for each other.
Moments of behaving like strangers.
Moments of behaving so stupidly idiot.
Moments of fitting in each others' life.
Moments of showing the best of both of us.
Moments of showing the real us for each of us.
And those are all utterly for each of us.
for goodness and badness.
It's all because of the feeling...